Here is a watercolor I finished last weekish. It came out OK. I just wish I were a good artists! Like REALLY actually GOOD. Like literally everyone on Pinterest/Twitter. Once upon a time I wanted to be a gallery artist and paint oils and live in New York. That obviously never happened. Anyway, the community show is up at the local art supply store and my painting is up there along with all the others! It’s even on the website! But its just one of twenty others in the main photo so it’s not special. But I don’t think I shamed myself at least. I’m going to go check out the show this week.
Anyway, here’s the painting before I spiral into depression.
The scan doesn’t get the colors right. The green on the fress is THE MOST AMAZING GREEN, it’s a Derwnt Inktense color called Racing Green and it’s ONLY found in their travel half-pan set! I have combed the individually sold Inktense pencils and it’s NOT THERE!!!! ARG!!!
I’ve also been eyeballing the Holbein watercolors on Jerry’s Artarama really hard. They have some beautiful colors! And no, I can’t afford them! Which is why I keep wistfully visiting colors like lilac and mineral violet…
There is only a tiny bit more art coming own the pike. I am working hard on my Pokemon D&D game! I have 3 players for the weekend game and 2 players for the Thursday game :( and a few I hope will join but may not be able too. But the next bit of art will be some Pokemon trainers from the game. I’m using Picrew for 90% of the NPCs but I want to draw the gym trainers myself because the Picrews don’t have the 1920s aesthetic I’m looking for.
In doll news: I bought a doll body, a Xaga doll anime style body! It was really reasonable (don’t ask) and I’m hoping it will work for one of the two MSD floating heads I have. I also have the sinking feeling that 1)I will have to lower the price on the Doll Chateau Alberta body I’m selling and 2) I will NEVER be able to sell those IoS heads and the body I bought for one of them. :( They aren’t even super expensive! I put an average price on all the items and even lowered the price on the heads a bit.
I wish things were better. BUT I’m hanging in there! And I think I’m going to buy a nifty timer thing to help me make better use of my time. And I know, I should stop wishing for the impossible (like being a good artists and actually selling art and making a living as a creative). But it’s hard to let go of things I wanted and hoped for and dreamed of since childhood.
Orange You Glad You Signed Up For This?
All artists wish they were good and doing the things they dreamed of doing—even the ones you are seeing on Instagram, etc. Most of them are slaving away, posting stuff online and wishing they were more. Even those at the top of the game, with awards and solid careers (very few get this!), can talk about low payments and how hard it is to get work and make a living. I used to go around at SDComic-Con and chat with them…