Now Back to Your Regularly Scheduled Tyranny

Project 2025 is as bad as you think it is. And if you haven’t heard of it, it’s worse than you can imagine.

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My Aimerai Wicked is on her way! At last! Jenny Greenteeth is coming home! I swear, only one more doll and I’m done! That last doll is Mildred Hubble, the Asleep Eidolon Ding Dang. But who knows if I’ll be able to get her now! Alice’s Collections is suspending shipping to the USA while they wait and see about the tariffs and how to ship items to the US. BOO! I need some more clothes for Uma my SD16!

Here is my piece for the Chromantic Show at Colours PDX. The show is about colors and artists pick one color to comprise 70% of the work and an adjacent color wheel color for the remaining 30%. And relatively free use of neutrals like white, black and beige. I chose purple for my main color and red for the adjacent color. It’s early days yet! So be kind…

It’s slowly coming together. I am having a constant crisis of confidence. This piece is so different from the catscapes, and it’s heavily inspired by Japanese art book I just bought. And I’m just thinking “Do I have a style?” “Do I have any original thoughts?” “Is this just derivative drivel?” “Do I have anything to say?” “Will the inconsistency of styles and themes hurt me in terms of gallery submissions?” “Is it okay to draw/paint whatever when I have no consistent style that makes people look at my work and recognize it as being made by a single artist?” “What the fuck am I doing?” I still don’t know how to paint! I don’t! I keep doing it but I have no idea what I’m doing! Acrylic gouache might be a better option for me, but I’m not sure. I can’t brush line work to save my life. I think for the painting above I’m going to have to use the scorned acrylic markers. Acrylic markers are for the weak! But I can’t take a chance on my complete lack of pressure/brush control.

So I don’t know what I’m doing. I never do. But I’m doing it. Once I read a tip from an artist that she liked to use liquid acrylic beacuse it dried flatter and didn’t show brush strokes, and I think I’ve invested in the wrong viscosity of acrylic… But I do love some chunk! But then I don’t. Arg! I can’t affor all the paints! If I could I’d be knee deep in oils right now and happily painting with it! Maybe I should try harder to get back into digital art. I hate it. Everything is just tons of money and the economy is on the brink of a crash.

Also I have eczema on my face. That’s fun. AND to top it off, an allergic reaction to my tattoo. I looked it up. The symptoms are little itchy bumps. If they didn’t respond to steroid treatment (which is does but only temporarily) they would be granulomas. I have an appointment at the clinic I go to, I can see an NP for free, and if it’s too bad they’ll send me to a specialist. The appointment isn’t until May 13th though. I got some pics of the tattoo bumpies to take and am self medicating with steroid cream because I have a ton of it from other eczema outbreaks.

OK, sorry there is nothing hopeful here at the end.