No Brain Only Paint

I can't be clever this week....

Painting is happening. It’s about all that is. I am pondering money, life, mortality, death, and what the fuck am I even doing. A tiny bit mired in regrets. I found an artist whose work I love on Instagram and now deeply regret not majoring in painting. She sort of does all the things I wish I had known I could. There was no support for painting pastel cute shit or anime style anything in oils. And I REALLY REALLY wanted to make comics. So it’s my bad and I ruined my life and made all the wrong decisions. AND I’m going to make a few more and buy a bunch more art supplies from Jerry’s! It’s cheap Grumbacher Academy acrylics. I will eventually start adding to my more expensive acrylics. I do off and on anyway. Just like the THREE whole tubes of Daniel Smith watercolor I own! Oh wait- I think it’s up to 4….

Art is unsustainable because you have to sell work in order to afford ever more premium art supplies. Or have a real job! OR live off someone and pursue a creative life and fail spectacularly.

Here is my finished painting of the cat and doggo! In my Jerry’s cart right now is some Liquitex glossy varnish. I’ll scan it eventually. I have been to lazy. I hate scanning my work. I have a small stack and I will get to it eventually.

And this is what I’m working on right now- a doggo! A change of pace from the cats :)

The background color of this is a cheap ass Purple Lake with Titanium White. I was originally going to make lavender with Dioxazine Purple and I think I should have…. I need to get better about under-painting and then painting in lines with acrylic. I keep using pencil for the lines under the painting and it’s a non-water soluble blue lead that shows through the light acrylics. I really want to use acrylic gouache but am still too chicken to bust out the Turners. I am going to get rid of the horrifically cheap acrylics I bought off Jerry’s though. I was going to try to make myself use them but OMG why??

Here are some more pics of the Square Foot Art Show.

This is 100% the winner of the show!! ^^^^

And that’s about it. Nothing good is really happening and I am escaping into drawing mindless cute shit and hope it sells despite the fact that selling art for a living is unobtainable for 99.9% of artists myself included. This comes to you via doing some quick calculations about either how many games I’d have to run or how may paintings I’d have to sell to achieve $5,000 a month in income. It’s NOT possible. There a not enough hours in the day. I did my calculations using an average $50 per painting.

Sorry for complaining so much lately. I think I’m having a near unnoticeable teeny tiny existential crisis because of things… mostly life and it’s inevitable conclusion. I promise LESS complains next week! I will find something good to say!