And the Sinking Feeling Grows

I shouldn't be GMing!

I shouldn’t be GMing anything! Arg!! I am losing confidence! Not for any specific reason, just any little thing sends me into a downward spiral. I don’t feel confident. I hope people are having fun. But I feel like I never should have started trying to GM in the first place. Anyway, the feeling will probably pass. It’s like the ups and downs of any new hobby. A first rush of beginner’s enthusiasm, then you realize how much work it is and how bad you are at it. Of course the only way to get better is to stick it out and practice. Being a VtM Storyteller is well outside my wheelhouse AND comfort zone! But I swore I’d try new things this year! And I have to give it a real chance.

Anyway, nothing much on the art front. I still want to start another acrylic, but I don’t want to start another acrylic…. LOL! I really want to try my acrylic gouache but I don’t want to waste it on my art…

Quick snap of the acrylic I’m dragging ass on. I inked it because I want to layer in lighter washes of acrylic before going in with more opaque colors and I wanted the lines to show through so I could follow them with paint. I’m hoping to add a sort of floral pattern to the back ground but I’m not good at stuff like that.

Doodled this not-very-good Whimsicott gijinka during Monday’s werewolf game. I left early- it was going to go on for a long time but I needed sleep.

In writing news I am STILL working on the R&R. I was really hoping to be done by now but I’m not. Saturday evening I have a consultation with an agent as part of the SCBWI Oregon online conference. I have to say my enthusiasm for writing is nose diving.

Doll news: I am pondering selling two original release Immortality of Soul heads, Asyd and Mezz. They are from YEARS ago. I’ve kept them in the box and they’ve never had face-ups. I’m trying to decide whether to sell or finish them.

Asyd (I think)

And Mezz (below)